What comes next?

Another year has come and gone. 2014 was actually pretty amazing. I had some incredible ups and downs but overall it such a fantastic year of learning.

I feel a bit lost at the moment. It is January 2015 and I officially left my job on November 1st 2014. Although I hadn't really been working since September 2014. I decided that I wanted to leave sales and do something completely different. So I applied (and got accepted) into Power Engineering. The problem is that it doesn't start until September 2015 and I feel stunted.

It's not that money is a problem - surprisingly. I've given into the fact that I will always have debt so I feel quite fine using debt as a means to live during this transition period. The problem is instability. Not knowing what is coming next. I wanted to take a university course for fun, but I am job hunting and what if I have to suddenly work during classes? I'd have to drop the course and that would be a waste or money and possibly a W on my transcript. I also wouldn't mind volunteering somewhere, like a soup kitchen. But there is so much red tape. By the time I spent all the energy on applying, getting back ground checks, etc, I'll probably have a job. Hopefully have a job.

I'm starting to doubt myself, which I often do. We are certainly our own worst enemy. I'm getting bored and restless now that the holidays are over. There are many things I *could* do. I could organize the kitchen or sort through clothes to give away those I don't use anymore. I could do art work, or sing, or practice guitar. I just don't feel like doing anything.